well, it's been ages since i've written anything. at least anything worth publishing. and honestly, i don't know that this will be any different; but i'm going to give it a shot at least.
luke and i just joined my mom for four days in our nation's capitol. my earliest memories are of that city so it's a special treat to go back and share it with my boys. the only two visits i've made there since i was five years old have been these excursions with my own children. the significance and energy of the city was lost on me thirty years ago, as i'm sure it is on them too, but the magnitude has made an impact on me that i have a hard time articulating.
the trip to dc was sandwiched between pride weekend, which coincided with haley's birthday, and a trip this upcoming weekend to arkansas to celebrate my parents' thirty year anniversary. to say i'm overwhelmed with celebration would be an understatement. the wave of serotonin is crashing on a beach of sleep deprivation.
but, all things considered, i'm finding things easy. travel usually isn't. party throwing usually isn't. being a major contributor at work on top of all that, usually isn't. and balancing the whole stack of plates, usually isn't.
but it is.
i'm not sure where to attribute the ease. i don't think there's a single source, but if i had to guess i think haley characterized it last night in an unrelated comment she made. she told me that she can sense herself feeling like a simpler approach to her wardrobe would be just fine. she chalks it up to aging, (she's aged exponentially since her birthday apparently) but i prefer to think of it as maturity. (not that we're all that mature, granted.) but when she said that, it made me smile and it made me happy. i could relate, not really in the wardrobe department so much, but just in general. and together...
easy does it.
i think i've mentioned before that i'm drawn to the energy of middle aged women. i always enjoyed the company of my mom's friends when they were in their 40's and 50's and admired the peace with which they move through the world. the wisdom of their experience. the accomplishment in their lives. now it seems that more of my own friends are in that age bracket and it feels very warm. very comfortable. (perhaps we are aging exponentially after all!)
easy does it.
unfortunately, it seems that easy doesn't stimulate me to write as much as i'd like. something to work on. and so here i am.
d: more words on paper.. er, or pixels.
b: simplicity..maturity.. easily
g: a wave of serotonin
