i started this blog as an observation on down and out. i considered breaking (one word title) form and entitling it as such; but then i was struck by the visual marriage of the two words. down..out: doubt... and perhaps it's more than an optical illusion.
spiralling down and out, my thoughts and feelings feeding off each other.. and multiplying the doubts. doubt in my direction, my purpose, my place. doubt in my perceptions, my impressions, my understanding. and ultimately in myself.
but like a spring, i'm resilient. i've been in difficult low spots before, wondering and dismayed. disappointed and disillusioned. and doubting my judgment and decisions.
and like a spring, with every contraction and expansion, it gets a little easier.
a loose interpretation of newton's third law and an overarching belief in karma assures me that for as low as i've dropped.. as far as i've spiraled down into doubt, there is an upswing coming. an expansion. a spiral outward and upward that i am certain of.
today marks a week of momentum. forward momentum. upward momentum. positive momentum. my friends reached in and lifted me up unexpectedly, three days in a row. jobs with exceptional potential, three at a time. and both boys celebrated small personal victories.
so now i'm invoking newton's first law of motion as i ride this spiral the other direction and preparing to harness this energy for what's to come.
d: powerful manifestation
b: powerful resilience
g: powerful inertia
