k.i.s.s.

hi, my name is jessica. i'm a bride eight and a half months from my wedding date and it's been twenty days since my last blogging.

it probably goes without saying that my obsession du jour is wedding planning but i've also read three (and a half) novels and two non-fiction books totally unrelated to said obsession over the past four weeks. so multiply that by two or three, to include the wedding magazines, websites and books, and you'll see that i've still been totally immersed in words despite my own writing hiatus.

but i do miss it.

this planning process has to be one of the most complex, multi-layered, and emotion laden projects i've ever managed. and without a doubt, the most fun too. haley and i regularly look at each other and say, 'it's not supposed to be this easy!'. (and then i try to make something hard, that really isn't. and she shakes her head and tells me how ridiculous i am. but never mind that.)

so, now we can check off pretty much everything related to the reception: venue, caterer, music, and much of the decor. we can check off most of the essential ceremony stuff too..though that's still coming together. (thank god - or what would i do for the next eight months?) and now i'm thinking that if i don't put myself back on some sort of disciplined writing schedule, i will certainly regret it. this is a time in my life that i want to remember. (and we all know i won't, if i don't write it down.)

on monday it will be two years to the day since haley and i first laid eyes on each other. two years from the day that our respective universes shifted and ever so subtly began to increasingly overlap. two years from the day that a spark lit a fire..a fire that has lit up the skyline of my life.

but my effort tonight to put words to paper is about more than just a heart overflowing with love and excitement, it's also about taking inventory. taking inventory and making an insight into some of my own deficiencies and potentially an approach to bring about change.

things as simple as giving myself a bedtime (and setting an alarm to remind me to honor it) and carving out a time for writing; these things change me. there are more complex tactics i'm undertaking as well and eventually perhaps i'll share..but for now.. one of my favorite twelve step slogans perhaps says it best: k.i.s.s.

keep it simple, sweetie.

(yes, that's the kinder, gentler version. i don't believe in calling myself stupid. others have done it quite enough already, thanks.)

d: let it begin with me
b: one day at a time
g: thanks for listening