inhale

mega's head is resting on the keyboard beside my typing fingers. when she thinks i'm not looking she starts licking me. i just applied lotion and though i can't detect what must certainly be a strong meat odor, she definitely can. until i cover it up or absorb it i'll be a walking lamb chop.

i guess i can relate though. in fact, the cologne haley wore on our first date sort of makes me want to sneak up and lick her when she's not looking. tonight i left a not-so-discreet arrow, made from bathroom essentials, pointing to the bottle on the bathroom counter. she'll be getting ready in there soon.. just a subtle hint.

they say that our sense of smell holds the longest memory and i strongly believe that. there are smells that can take me back to a memory i'd long filed away and evoke the sense of it being this very instant. i love that. i think i love it most because it's invisible.

smells are so complex and layered and it's the unique balance of elements that must occur at the partical level for us to find familiarity, and so i'd think it wouldn't ever happen. yet it does.

i read a book a couple of years ago, perfume, about a french murderer named jean-baptiste grenouille. jean-baptiste was born without a personal scent of his own. no scent at all. but an extraordinary sense of smell, himself. he proceeds to kill women and girls to capture their scents as he becomes a renowned perfumer. it was horrific and disturbing and yet morbidly fascinating as well.

in the story jean-baptiste is not accepted by society until he concocts a 'natural' body scent for himself. interesting. maybe what we designate as an energy aura is simply a person's scent. maybe attraction to a person's energy is really just an appetite for their aroma.

remember the movie michael? he smelled like chocolate chip cookies. nobody could resist him.

hmm, lamb chop energy. lucky me.

d: more baking chocolate in my energy's aroma.
b: i love deep breathing: inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale.
g: haley's sweet smell wafted my way.