impatient

well, i suppose we got the snow i was asking for. the boys were disappointed it didn't make it here before school, but never mind that, after school worked just fine. both of them went through a couple pairs of pants, gloves, jackets, and hats. all of which are in the dryer as i type.

mega absolutely loved the snow. her first triumphant bound into the great white unknown took her head first into the fish pond, which wasn't quite frozen despite the snow laying on the surface. she was a trooper though and swam across the pond where i scooped her out. and then, she turned to the snowy grass and ran out into it, frolicking as though she hadn't just been dipped in an ice bath.

she loved the snow so much in fact that when i brought her in the house, she sat at the door whining to go back out. i can't tell you how excited that makes me for her late night potty trip before bed and even more thrilled about her 7 am trip. tromping into the nearly six inches of snow to retrieve her in my bathrobe isn't exactly how i want to wake up on a saturday morning. maybe she'll return quickly of her own accord. i'll cross my fingers.

the snow didn't trap us here all day, since it arrived late in the afternoon; but it did provide a natural barrier for tonight. and as luke and i threw snowballs at each other, it brought to mind 'laughter is the best medicine'. particularly when the ailment is in the heart. he seemed better tonight.

the boys and i played monopoly in front of the olympic opening ceremony tonight and i only wanted for one thing. haley. she's at work just like most every friday night, (though i can't imagine who is out to eat in this weather); and even more than most fridays i wish she were here, snowed in with us.

most of the time, i am fairly content with the flow of our time together and apart. we have much more of the former than the latter, especially considering we live in two homes, in different parts of town. i know that one day it will be different and to our credit, we're both patient enough and willing enough to do what we must until then.

except sometimes i'm impatient. and tonight, snowed in in the suburbs, is one of those times.
impatient for communication.
impatient for attention.
impatient for access.
impatient for companionship.
impatient for bedtime cuddles.
impatient for dawn.
just generally impatient.

*deep sigh*

when i turned off all the lights downstairs and summoned mega up to bed, i took a double-take at the back yard. it was so bright, i thought i must have left the floodlights on. but no.. just the snow's glow. it manages to reflect every particle of light, illuminating the entire neighborhood as though each house had its own private full moon.

and i'm reminded that there's light even when i'm impatient for dawn. there's medicine in laughter. and it's just a season...

d: laughter through the weekend
b: i'm replacing my impatience with gratitude
g: the light is so bright...the yard isn't the only thing glowing