-photo by renee lewisit remains to be seen how my own ebay venture turns out, but luke, on the other hand, has mastered it. clearing well over $100 in less than a week, he's practically an expert i'd say.
i wrote not long ago about his need for quick cash - quick only because everything he wants, he wants immediately - and i spared you 'the rest of the story', in which his anquish over the money-making process drove me to the brink of insanity. but now that he has the money in hand, or close at hand at least, he's entered a new phase of torture. now he's tortured about choosing the right item on which to spend it. at the moment, there are two up for consideration; and he's leaning one way and then the other on the hour.
i waffle between amusement, confusion, and irritation over his process but net out usually at curiosity. curious how he and todd are so markedly different in this way and yet both children of mine. admittedly luke gets the obsessive gene and the thrill of the spend trait from me. but the anguish and unrelenting fervor with which he pursues what he wants is frightening. i think perhaps it's me untempered by responsibility and less distractable ("oh look, something pretty!") that i see manifested in luke when it comes to shopping.
but maybe not just responsibility; maybe also an appreciation for things that don't have a price tag. i worry that's what he's lacking and i feel a burden to try and impart that to him.
on the other hand, luke is the connector in the family. or at the very least, the most connected. he is never out of touch. last night haley and i were at jackie's birthday dinner at a restaurant, todd and luke home with a sitter. i get a text: 'how's it going?' i reply, 'great.. love you.' and he writes back, 'i love you too.' no agenda. just a connection. i get calls from him regularly when he's away at his dad's. just to see how i'm doing. what i'm up to. if i'm having a good weekend. when the ice hit atlanta a few weeks ago, i got a text from him that said, 'be careful driving mommy.'
so i know luke has a soft side. i'm one of the lucky few that are privy to it. i just wish he knew that it was in fact his most valuable asset.
d: may his tenderness temper his fervor in the pursuit.
b: my son is an ebay power seller.
g: luke believes in abundance and centers himself in it.
i wrote not long ago about his need for quick cash - quick only because everything he wants, he wants immediately - and i spared you 'the rest of the story', in which his anquish over the money-making process drove me to the brink of insanity. but now that he has the money in hand, or close at hand at least, he's entered a new phase of torture. now he's tortured about choosing the right item on which to spend it. at the moment, there are two up for consideration; and he's leaning one way and then the other on the hour.
i waffle between amusement, confusion, and irritation over his process but net out usually at curiosity. curious how he and todd are so markedly different in this way and yet both children of mine. admittedly luke gets the obsessive gene and the thrill of the spend trait from me. but the anguish and unrelenting fervor with which he pursues what he wants is frightening. i think perhaps it's me untempered by responsibility and less distractable ("oh look, something pretty!") that i see manifested in luke when it comes to shopping.
but maybe not just responsibility; maybe also an appreciation for things that don't have a price tag. i worry that's what he's lacking and i feel a burden to try and impart that to him.
on the other hand, luke is the connector in the family. or at the very least, the most connected. he is never out of touch. last night haley and i were at jackie's birthday dinner at a restaurant, todd and luke home with a sitter. i get a text: 'how's it going?' i reply, 'great.. love you.' and he writes back, 'i love you too.' no agenda. just a connection. i get calls from him regularly when he's away at his dad's. just to see how i'm doing. what i'm up to. if i'm having a good weekend. when the ice hit atlanta a few weeks ago, i got a text from him that said, 'be careful driving mommy.'
so i know luke has a soft side. i'm one of the lucky few that are privy to it. i just wish he knew that it was in fact his most valuable asset.
d: may his tenderness temper his fervor in the pursuit.
b: my son is an ebay power seller.
g: luke believes in abundance and centers himself in it.
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