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three days in a row and three significant things crossed off of my household to-do list. when i say significant i mean significantly annoying. items such as hauling very heavy things to goodwill. or getting new tires. things like that.

someone mentioned the phrase 'spring cleaning' to me today and i thought, 'OH - there's a wave i can ride!' at this point i'm looking for any boost at all to get me to my march 31st goal of putting this house on the market. that leaves three weeks and umm, well, quite a lot still to be done. but at the rate of one significant task a day, i think i'll get there.

i made a list today. it has things such as "#8: burn the playroom" and includes words such as "overhaul" at least twice. even so, and even knowing it's surely incomplete, the list makes it seem much more finite.

yesterday, for no apparent reason, haley said, 'i think you're getting closer.' and i said, 'to what?' and she said, 'to being here. in town.' and i said, 'umm, yeah. i think i am. i hope so.' although nothing perceptible has changed, i do feel a shift.

and so do the boys. though they weathered the initial news well, i'm sensing their ambivalence. i had to prove on paper that in fact atlanta is not one of the most dangerous cities in america. and that contrary to popular opinion there are also a few commendable public schools inside the perimeter. there are even some public schools now charging tuition to folks outside their boundaries - so that's saying something. (is that really public? or quasi private? or simply smart city government?)

i know of course their 'concerns' are just a thin veil for their anxiety about change. and i can understand that. i can't really relate, but i can understand.

i moved more times than i can count as a child and teenager. and that's not me being dramatic. i changed schools 13 times from K-12 and still spent the last two and a half at one school. so you do the math - that's 13 times in 11 years. for me, staying still is more uncomfortable than movement.

(yes, i'm a pisces. thank god.)

and so, in the midst of this changing scenery and the endless checklists, i feel energized. (and exhausted too, but mostly the former.) like a wave gaining momentum and sweeping everything up along the ocean floor.. building in energy and ready to burst upon the shore.

(yes, i'm a pisces. and it's a week until my birthday.)

d: checklists checked complete
b: steadily checking the boxes off
g: yes, i am a pisces..