swimming

tonight i turned over an old pill bottle labeled as muscle relaxers and found two different types of pills in the bottom. one was labeled as an over-the-counter pill and the other was presumably the original prescription. it was cut in half (maybe i only took half last time?) but there were two halves left. since i've totally whacked my back this week, i figured 'what the hell' and took both halves. unfortunately, i've whittled my pain med supply down to nothing more than midol, so now i'm loose as a goose and still in crazy pain.

back pain is the worst in my opinion. nothing happens that you don't feel it. no movement, no breath, no position sitting or laying. and to make matters worse, i can't identify a single cause.. more like a cumulative effect of several things i suppose. oh well. all that to say, writing on (a double dose?) of muscle relaxers is its own special challenge.

bouncing from one thought to another, i can't settle on just one to write about. rather than fight it, i'll just babble on. today felt like two days in one. first a day spent with todd. and then a day (evening?) spent with luke. it's a gift to have so much of this long weekend with the boys individually, owing to their emerging social lives, and rather than doubly exhausting, i'm finding it doubly fun.

tonight luke ate twice as much food as i did. he has the appetite of a person twice his age. and then he told me that even when he's an adult he wants to sleep in a bunk bed. he is still only 10 after all.

he and i cleaned his room. and i do mean cleaned. it was a tribute to the local landfill in there, the floor entirely buried and collections upon collections piled on every surface. i want to rearrange and redecorate it; but probably best done when he's away. he loves the bunk beds turned loft - with desks and book cases below.. and i'm thinking of doing it myself to his current set. remove the fourth side from the bottom bunk and ta-da! loft! (better wait till the muscle relaxers wear off to make that decision.)

yesterday i bought a scratch off lottery ticket. my first one in a couple of weeks for no reason in particular. won $50. bought two mega millions tickets too. standing by for the drawing. i'm the luckiest person i know. i have high hopes.

i have the fan in my room turned on high, because i refuse to close all the windows in the house when it's supposed to drop to 60 tonight. but, for the record, it's hot in here. i'm stumped by this weather. i thought fall was here... i even let haley talk me into a hoodie for mega (i know, i know.) and now it's too hot to wear it.

oh wow.. i need to go to bed. head is swimming and back is perhaps even worse - i blame the soft couch.

d: pain free when i wake
b: i'm lucky, lucky, lucky.
g: double time with the boys was doubly fulfilling