easy

today i'm at a loss for words. this rarely happens, as many will attest to. it's nearly tomorrow and the pressure of beating the clock is upon me. (oh no!)

i'm not feeling particularly contemplative, but i am feeling extremely grateful. from work to the gym to home - it's all been easy and good. well, maybe easy is an overstatement (thinking back to my workout...) but definitely satisfying.

or maybe easy is the right word. sometimes things just flow.. and they are easy. sometimes i feel appreciated and validated at work. sometimes i feel strong and capable at the gym. sometimes i feel loved and supported at home. and then it's easy. like today. and i'm grateful.

but before i float off on cloud nine, write a dbg, and cuddle up next to haley i want to pause and stop to be grateful for the hard stuff too.

todd and i had a hard afternoon yesterday. we hit a pre-pubescent and umm, mid-30's emotional power struggle leaving us both hurt, angry and confused. but.. despite signs to the contrary, we muddled through, still love each other, and lived to see another day.

and for the struggles, i am grateful. for the pain, i am grateful. for the confusion and anger, i am grateful. in these times of easy, i remember the hard. it is in those times that we heal and change.. and the easy is when we celebrate those changes. for that i am grateful.

so tonight as i sit with no burning desires to write about, i do have a full heart. and that may be the only thing better than words.

d: words for tomorrow.
b: filled a page with wordlessness.. and maybe made a point too.
g: a day so easy, i have nothing to say.