grey

tonight, luke: mommy, if you didn't put that in your hair would you be all white?
pretty much, i admit while squirting the rest of the bottle of Loreal's soft black, the same color i've used for the past 12 years, into the mass of hair clipped on top of my head.
luke: what about ami? is her hair white too?
me: umm, yeah. though not as much as mine...

which makes me consider how we're evolving. if my mother is less grey than me, (and even if she'd debate that, she can't argue that she was as grey as i am at this age) then are we evolving to greyer haired generations? will the boys be grey before they finish high school? after all, i was buying this same box with the timeless brunette on it while i was in college. (god forbid they change the model - i'll have to call the help line.)

i know of several people my age who were born without wisdom teeth. so maybe we're evolving into a grey-haired toothless generation.

today the news has been laden with celebrity deaths. i'm a believer in a soul everlasting.. energy neither created nor destroyed. rather, redeployed, so to speak. i don't know how that manifests, but it's fun to imagine. haley and i joked once about how some signs in the zodiac seemed to possess less evolved persons and i said, 'maybe they are younger souls.. when they are reborn they'll come back as a better sign.' and she said not-so-modestly, 'like libra?' (apparently the libra ego is quite evolved.)

on a serious note though, evolve is one of my favorite words. it's almost a palindrome and though it falls short, i give it points for trying because it holds the word love gently within its two ve's. i attest there's a good reason for that.

it is with the safety and security of love..
it is with the vulnerability of love..
it is with the breaking down and building up of love..
it is with the connection and the compassion of love..

and mostly - it is by the grace and for the sake of love that we evolve! perhaps jack nicholson's Melvin in As Good As It Gets said it best: "You make me want to be a better man."

that being said, though i am striving every day to grow and be a better man, er woman, for the one i love (and the little ones sleeping upstairs too), i'm afraid that i'll be drawing the line at grey hair. because there's no love in this world that can come between me and that brunette on the soft black Loreal box.

d: evolution
b: limitation!
g: colorization.