process

last fall our leadership team got a stick up their ass about 'process' and were harping on all of us about developing, documenting and mapping them out in the most painstaking detail. initiatives that already had a zillion steps now were compounded by the interminable process.

being largely right-brained, i tend to focus myself on the big picture and others' scrutiny of my process probably made me look like a mad man. i have an insatiable need to juggle lots of balls at one time, but following prescribed steps and procedures rubs me the wrong way. stifles my ability to be productive. and does the exact opposite of what it's intended for, related to thoroughness and efficiency. i filed the word 'process' away alongside other dirty words i don't care for. (mind you, not 'dirty' per se. because i like those quite a lot. but 'dirty' as in unpleasant. like 'probe'.)

until today.

over the past few days i read the law of attraction and realized that i've been selling 'process' short. here i am manifesting so many things in my life.. deliberately and intentionally.. and running into language issues. because really, when i say 'manifesting' it makes most people roll their eyes or look at me as though i've sprouted another head. and not just other people. i struggle with it too at times.

so now i'm in the process of...

in the process of becoming an excellent tennis player.
in the process of obtaining a job that makes me happy.
in the process of writing something saleable.
in the process of getting a puppy.
in the process of attracting more income.
in the process of being fitter.
in the process of being more patient. (not in relation to these other processes, of course.)

it's liberating. i feel free to be in the process and trust in the process and know that i'll get the outcome i want and i don't have to map or diagram or detail all the steps on a timeline. i just don't.

my process is unprocessed.

d: allowing the process.
b: my big picture is very exciting.
g: the details are being handled.