basically

wow, now i'm in overdrive on creativity. i have been introduced to the best thing since sliced bread online. it's so good that i don't want to share it though. a little gold mine i'm holding out on.. for a little longer. (muahahaha!)

at any rate, it's stolen my creative focus and i've been so productive with a project there that i'm trying to complete on deadline that i haven't been back here since last night's burst of mad blogging.

yeah, uh huh. this is what i would call an excuse if one of my boys offered it up.

yeah, mom.. there's this great thing i'm doing.. and it's really neat and very important! umm, no, i can't tell you what it is. umm, no, i haven't done my homework yet. but i will. and then i'll show you this other neat thing. next week. yeah, next week.

so today, my head was clear and my heart was full of joy.. and i went out to hit some tennis balls with haley. i hit balls with her yesterday too, when my head was mud and my heart was not full of joy. and i actually hit them pretty well. so today, i expected to do even better.

i was grossly mistaken. perhaps it was because yesterday i was so keenly focused on bounce-hit to keep at bay the lurking fears or perhaps it was because today i was so distracted by the other happy ideas and conversations i wanted to have, or perhaps it was both. regardless; today was much more difficult on the court.

either i was too close or too far. many balls i cleanly missed as though my racket were unstringed altogether. and then others there was no real explanation for. i just was off. a couple of baskets in, things turned around a bit. refocusing on the strings, chanting the bounce-hit mantra; the basics of course.

maybe this is a case where the most obvious lesson is the one i need to hear. maybe the thing i need to take away is a simple refocusing on the basics when either fearfully stuck in the mud or deliriously happy and distracted will improve my game.

and so tonight.. i cooked dinner. and did laundry. and that is all, basically.

d: simplify rather than diversify.
b: i found the coolest thing on the internet. i really did. i just can't tell you yet. (stay tuned. i promise it's worth the wait.)
g: another lesson on the tennis court.