price

it's a funny task, assigning a price tag to things that are so subjective and intangible. like the value of a job well done or the value of a life or companionship. and for some reason i've been confronted lately with both assignments.

both impossible.

for too many years i've considered my salary to be of secondary importance to other job attributes. i've felt apologetic when discussing what i want and predictably, i've been under-compensated. you get what you ask for, right?

now i'm in the enviable position of getting to have that conversation again. *groan* but this time, i'm going to approach it differently. my hour of work is worth at least as much as hers and more than his, because it seems like if i've learned nothing else after all this time in marketing, price is purely arbitrary.

so today when a potential employer called and asked me my salary requirement, i didn't play any games, i just gave a number. and friday when i have another similar conversation, i will do the same thing. and when i have my next conversation, and my next conversation, and my next, i will continue to ask for what i deserve. and i will not apologize for it.

and at the same time i'm standing up for what i want and need in terms of income, i have also made peace with a certain price tag on a new family member. the request i put to the universe, the prayer i issued was for the right puppy at the right price in the right time.. and i prayed for the wisdom to know when i found her.

i opened my heart to other puppies and i talked to other breeders and i stopped crying and sat as patiently as i could, waiting for an answer. and it came. there was no sky-parting, lightning bolt, god-wink. there was no aha, flash of divine inspiration. there was just a series of small insights, occuring in various conversations and situations, over the course of several days.. and then i knew.

it may seem frivolous to some and it may seem short-sighted or irresponsible to others, but i feel secure and confident in the decision. i have no doubt in the abundance of the universe and my placement in it.

d: balancing my price/value equation on friday.
b: i am asking for what i want.
g: mega-abundance and prosperity.. mega.