puppy

i've had my heart set on a cavalier king charles spaniel for months and months now. and in the synchronistic way that things usually happen, the perfect breeder with a brand new litter of puppies was introduced to me by a well-placed stranger.

the right breeder is hard to find.. so many are off-putting to me. but this woman's philosophy is sound. her environment for the pups is what i'd always envisioned for a puppy of mine. the mom and dad are beautiful and beloved pets. she really loves her dogs; they sleep in her bed and run under foot while she tends the farm. i get page-long emails nearly every day detailing the puppies' growth and antics.

and in the divine way that things work out, the puppy's name was a god-wink for another project haley and i are working on and the puppy's timing for her new home is a perfect match to my schedule change.

needless to say i'm attached.

but then today i learned that she's going to be priced at more than double the cost i was expecting and fifty percent more than i'm willing or able to pay. and my heart is breaking.

i know that if milla isn't the right puppy for me, the right one is on her way, but setting aside the disappointment is proving difficult.

haley said that maybe all of the seeming perfection of this particular puppy was simply a bus stop, rather than the destination; and i like that metaphor. i'm taking it a step further though and hoping that this latest news on milla is just a speed bump along the route and that she'll still be at the end of the road.

after all, tonight is the mega million drawing and i have a ticket.

d: see above picture
b: i'm very lucky.
g: the perfect puppy is on its way.