divine

I can feel you across the miles in my body
Almost physical - spiritual
like there was no separation
like you were right beside me
like a river.

I can feel forever in my mind
I can always reach for you inside
We can stay together in our minds
Feel you like a river never dies..

~excerpted from Feel You Like a River by atb
~photo by renee lewis

at the airport waiting for my flight to florida... anxious for the second half of my vacation to begin. the last time that haley and i spent this many days apart was in between meeting and our first date.

those ten days we tentatively took the first few steps, each of us expecting to get a deal-killer at any minute. e-mails of introduction, questions of exploration (oh so many questions), scales for self-evaluation and healthy skepticism on both of our parts.

but day by day hope replaced skepticism. and after hope, a first date. a first date like no other, not surprising considering our initial meeting. everything stopped in that moment. the room faded away. something magical occurred and i think we were both holding our breath until the first date - would it still be there?

deep exhale. it was there. and then some.

and date by date, hope was replaced by awe. and in awe haley and i would sit and stare at each other, discussing all the ways we are perfect together. it's the real reason deb and dupree sold their house: we were nauseating them and there was no other way to get haley out. personally, i harbored some concerns that our couple-narcissism would consume us. we enjoy it so much, i wondered if we'd only become more obsessed.

but then awe was replaced with gratitude. and while those may sound very much the same, they aren't.

where awe is paralyzing, gratitude is motivating.
where awe is stunned, gratitude is inspired.
where awe is personal, gratitude is overflowing.
in awe of haley. in awe of us. in gratitude to something divine.

and with a heart of gratitude to the divine, we are now claiming our own divinity. and with all the power of the world in our hands, we are creating something amazing. not only for ourselves and each other, but to share generously. we are manifesting great things and growing great ideas.

and though we've been separated these five days, by five states, and without a doubt i've missed her, i have felt connected by what we share.

I can feel you across the miles in my body
Almost physical - spiritual
like there was no separation
like you were right beside me
like a river.

d: baltimore weather, please permit my aircraft to arrive.
b: i found something healthy'ish to eat at the aiport. and yes, i strolled right past popeyes.
g: a divine connection that transcends time and space.